[LDC]KillTheGroom
18 Years Old
Brugge ,
Belgium
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You don't need me, will never do. You shouldn't care about me, I will just destroy you.
JUST ANOTHER LOSER...
The illusion of life has a terrible and gruesome effect on the illusion of me, using encyclopaedias to understand the life I'm living, to understand the reason I stand upon my bare foot on the cold ground of our darkness we called earth... And others rise to see me fall, and other rise to contest my will, and others rise to make me fall, but all fail, the concrete heart inside of me keeps me standing up in black hole we call home, it's fundamental to my design, to the design of I. What more can I say then I care for you, love isn't something in me, I can care, the heart of flesh and blood that helped me love must have disappeared in the ashes of relationships... Together with a big chunk of my happiness... I'm in pursuit of a new dream to live up to, in pursuit of a new life to lead, in pursuit of an end for this all. It's not that I consider killing myself, I just want a new life. A replay, so I can relive the precious moments and ward the bad. I'm not old, haven't seen the world, don't know the greatest sorrow, hell, I don't want to... I just want that for once in my life my concrete heart turns back into it's original form.
For I only have the illusion of feeling, the illusion of love, the illusion of anger. I can't really feel all of this.
I can fake laughter, fake sorrow, fake love, fake everything, and all it will do is bring medusa closer to my heart. Is there a way to enjoy feeling in real life? A solution that would make an illusion go away, disappear in a void. In a wormhole...
I just want to be free...
There is no such revelation, such solution, so I can just make it less hard for me, Alcohol, drugs, Extreme sports, It al works short term, but what I seek is just...
Salvation of the mandatory dark and heavy life...
Rest in Peace my most loyal friend, rest in peace my only friend, may I ever see you again, heaven, hell or abyss, I hope I see you again. Because you are the one I keep thinking about, Because you are the one who took my function to care, love, hate and all other emotions with you at your death...
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